Our Life is an Altar

Letter to a friend

Our Life is an Altar

The Mother has always been to me the Incarnation, the direct embodiment of the ultimate absolute Consciousness and Being. At a time of life when I was desperately seeking a meaning in life, I met Her and the moment I saw Her truly speaking all my problems were solved forever. I knew that She was the ultimate solution. I came in the Ashram to find the Divine. I was aware of a supreme omniscient Presence but I had no communication with it. I knew that only She could help me to find the Divine. She assured me of her help in my effort to realise the Divine. One day She told me not to depend on her person but on her spiritual reality. She never encouraged me to be near her person in a familiar human way. She told me that this She did because She wanted that I should be in direct contact with the Divine. She told me that She was always with me and I was always with Her. As a matter of fact, this has been a living experience with me. Whatever I do, She is sovereignly present in my consciousness. The human in me is a typical example, mean, obscure and miserable of the average humanity. But the soul in me had implicit faith in the Mother. Whatever She says is the absolute truth, whatever She does is an act of grace, meant to take us to the divine goal. She broke down the inner subtle barriers below and above. The Power flows from the superconscient regions above into the being and gradually brings illumination in every part of the being. The human too in me is delivered from its congenital limitations. By the fiery compassionate lightning of the terrible Mother Kali most of the basic ignorant instincts are reduced to ashes. The prison of heart and mind crumble under the assault of the divine force and the soul is released into a vast limitless consciousness of the nameless formless divine existence. Every face and form becomes an embodiment of the supreme reality. There is only the Divine, his will, his vision and his manifestation. The minutest object and being contains the absolute potency. The most trivial movement is part of the omniscient divine vision. The Divine is the only reality. More and more any personal, individual existence seems to be a delightful fiction of the mind. There is only the One, beyond all, infinitely all, yet no one in particular. Waves do not constitute the Ocean. When I came in the Ashram I did not know how to pray, even what to pray for. I had no life. I had no future and I was a stranger to an abiding joy. The Mother has taken over my life, mind, body and soul and I can feel her transforming force working in me pouring from above her light, power and consciousness! I am so deeply satisfied with her constant Presence that I have only one desire – to sing her Glory!
Our life is an altar, a Temple for the adoration of the World-Mother. But for Her, I could not have believed that the Divine is so compassionate and loving.
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Niranjan Guha Roy - May 1983

 


The Mother is the golden Bridge

The Mother is the golden Bridge

The Mother is the Golden Bridge between the Supreme and the soul of man. She came down in an earthly body as the incarnate word of God. She manifested in a frail human body some absolute Power of God. Every second of her existence has taken the earth light years ahead in its evolution. She has prepared the earth for an inconceivable divine transformation. Her physical form was a point of concentration of the infinite original consciousness which She is eternally. Every moment of her life has been a ceaseless terrible struggle and a fierce painful battle against the formidable powers which rule the earth-nature since the creation in order to lay the foundation of a divine life on earth. Every word She has expressed is a priceless gift of the Supreme to man and earth.
Although now She is no longer present in her body, She is always present everywhere for there is nothing else except Her anywhere. When we are sincere, when we are simple, when we love Her truly, then we become aware of her presence, her tenderness, her help and guidance. To read her books is to communicate with the absolute wisdom. To look at her face in a photo and specially to look into her eyes is to enter into the fathomless heart of divine love. We feel then her all-comprehending sweetness and compassion. No one anywhere can ever give us so profound and lasting satisfaction as when we are with Her. She is so utterly good to everyone without exception that each soul feels fulfilled in her presence.
Love of truth, beauty and harmony will inevitably lead us to the secret Temple in the heart where She is forever installed, in all her glory, her hand always outstretched in the act of blessing. Our little life and existence is no better than the life of a firefly. If we can annul ourselves totally, realise our absolute nothingness then we are admitted into the resplendent vision of the One, the eternal Mother Divine. Verily, all is that Supreme Reality. We become dumb before that supernal Mystery.
O Mother Divine remain bright in my soul, become brighter in my consciousness so that I see only You and no one else.
May we become whatever You want us to be for You always work for our highest good.
May we remember You in every breath of our life for that brings the sweetest intimacy, the silent ecstasy, Om, Om Supreme Goodness.
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Niranjan Guha Roy -31 March 1983

The Lord and His Shakti

The Lord and His Shakti

One might say that the Divine Power is working very strongly in the world for creating unity and putting a pressure on the most recalcitrant elements, which refuse the essential Oneness. In this respect Pondicherry, not Ajodhya, is the hope of the future. In our legends, the story of Sati is very striking. When Shiva mad with grief danced with the dead body of Sati and threatened to destroy the creation, Vishnu intervened and cut her corpse in over fifty pieces which fell in different parts of India and thus, Vishnu saved India from a destruction by creating a greater unity through the emergence of a number of holy places of pilgrimage or seats of the Hindu spirituality. A portion of the body of the Goddess created a centre of spirituality, which has lasted a few thousand years. In Pondicherry the material discarded robes of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo, God and His Shakti are so to say, lying in state permanently. There is an irradiating Force from the Samadhi, which can be compared to the radiation of nuclear energy. As it is a spiritual Force, so it can be felt anywhere. The whole atmosphere of the earth is surcharged with its Presence. It is working to awaken the consciousness of the essential spiritual Oneness, everywhere, in every being and thing. Naturally all those who are receptive to it will feel a constant urge of spiritual growth and a new orientation in their life. So Pondicherry acquires a new meaning. The spiritual energy emanating from it will unite all the aspiring souls, unite India and unite the world. The more we can embody this Force, the quicker will the transformation take place. As in ancient times, Sati by her death united India, so at the present time, the Mother Divine and Sri Aurobindo even by the sacrifice of their body are uniting India and the world. This is a subtle physical fact. Of course, the Mother and Sri Aurobindo are most powerfully present on the spiritual levels of consciousness. It is the tremendous pressure of Para-Prakriti for a radical change that has brought out on the surface all the opposing elements that have to disappear.
Unity is the only solution for all problems of humlan existence. To live in the vision of Sarvam Brahman and acty moved by it
Only a true surrender to the Mother is our utmost security and happiness.
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Niranjan Guha Roy 1991

Thy Will be done

Thy Will be done
One thing which has always overwhelmingly surprised me is the birth of a huge tree from a tiny grain. We take the fact as quite natural. To me it is the most mysterious miracle. To speak in the modern computer language, the birth and growth of the tree, its trajectory from birth to death is programmed in the seed itself. It is so with every variety of life. We are so familiar with this programming that we can easily predict the life history of each living species. If we go back into the past, then we may say that even the appearance of life on earth, in earth, matter is also programmed. Even the formation of material earth out of a fiery gaseous ball was programmed. The same thing can be said about a constellation, even about the material universe. Just as a man has appeared through a long evolution as the result of an original inbuilt programme or prevision, so too a superior being may appear out of the human race. We have some great examples. If so he too is programmed. In spiritual language, becoming or manifestation is the progressive unfolding of the inherent divinity, of the Supreme Consciousness which is beyond all space, time and dimension. There is a Supreme Will at the origin, effective, active, invariably absolute in power at every stage of evolution, in every field of manifestation. The Universe is at each instant as it is intended to be. At every instant the supreme programme is worked out perfectly in the minutest detail. Here we can note the words of the spiritual seers in India. "Not even a blade of grass can move without His sanction." As we rise into the divine consciousness according to a sempiternal programme, we become conscious of the One Will, the Supreme and His consciousness and see that the infinite eternal, endless manifestation in infinite dimensions is the constant unfolding or working out of His Will, His programme, His play, His joy of being and becoming. The human being carries in himself evolved through ages the seed of divinity, the Divine spark, the soul. This soul is programmed to develop and grow and inevitably divinise the mind, life and body. It is the emergence of the soul of man as the leader of man that triggers off another series of occult and spiritual programmes. The soul obeys the Divine impulse naturally and in the measure we respond correctly to the Divine impulse we become progressively divine. When our surrender is complete, when the whole being readily responds to the Divine, we become aware of the Absolute Origin, the sole Divine Reality and are moved only by that and see and experience only the Eternal in infinite forms in infinite dimensions of time and space. Thy Will be done. Sri Aurobindo says that if we can rise to the highest ranges of Supermind, then we can see the future as plainly as the past. Since it is all programmed, our efforts, sufferings, deceptions, glimpses of hope, aspiration and growth, all we have to do is to increase our power of acceptance of whatever comes in the divine dispensation. As our surrender grows, the willingness to obey and follow the Divine Will, the Impulse, the Intuition, we enter into a state of peace and harmony. We have the living experience of a sure friendly guidance.
Our road does not lead to worldly achievements, gains, name, fame or glory. These are human things. By all paths we meet the Divine. Every meeting, each happening, each moment becomes an opportunity for a divine experience, meeting the nameless Person, the Eternal.
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One choice only

One Choice only
There is only one choice left to us when nothing in the world can help us – to turn to the Divine Mother and Her infinite Grace. No money can save us. No human being, however powerful and influential, can bring any real help. I do not have any power, occult or spiritual, nor do I have any faith in any god. I don't know any nor do I care to know one. When things are hopeless, when I see no hope, no issue, one Face appears bright and smiling, comforting and reassuring, simple and loving, the Face of the most reliable Friend, the Mother. Other faces however wonderful fade away as ephemeral passing waves. The whole existence becomes unreal, blurred, only one Face remains bright, shines ever luminously as the only thing real, eternal, unalterable, ever near and intimate in this vast, stupendous changing scene, forever unstable. Even if this Image were a mirage, I would hold on to it. This is the Face of Someone who is unbelievably good, gentle and absolutely reliable, who has no other consideration except our highest good, who accepts us as we are with the deepest love and understanding. In life and death, through all existence, this is the single Face which is permanent, always with us. As we contemplate the Face, it melts into a sweetness and pours itself into our whole being and wipes away all traces of suffering. In a last desperate struggle when we have lost everything, when our body is dying, consciousness is lost in oblivion, in one feeble final reflex action our hand seeks a Hand and finds Hers. She is always with us inside and outside, everywhere. She never leaves us. She never lets anyone down. I am not sure of my existence, my continuity, for that matter, of anybody's existence or continuity. I am a bubble among other bubbles on the infinite Ocean of vibrating compassion, love and sweetness, that living body of unfathomable Godhead ... the Mother. There is no one, nothing in existence in any dimension except that soothing pulsation pervading All and Beyond, the Mother
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The Mother is the golden Bridge
The Mother is the Golden Bridge between the Supreme and the soul of man. She came down in an earthly body as the incarnate word of God. She manifested in a frail human body some absolute Power of God. Every second of her existence has taken the earth light years ahead in its evolution. She has prepared the earth for an inconceivable divine transformation. Her physical form was a point of concentration of the infinite original consciousness which She is eternally. Every moment of her life has been a ceaseless terrible struggle and a fierce painful battle against the formidable powers which rule the earth-nature since the creation in order to lay the foundation of a divine life on earth. Every word She has expressed is a priceless gift of the Supreme to man and earth. Although now She is no longer present in her body, She is always present everywhere for there is nothing else except Her anywhere. When we are sincere, when we are simple, when we love Her truly, then we become aware of her presence, her tenderness, her help and guidance. To read her books is to communicate with the absolute wisdom. To look at her face in a photo and specially to look into her eyes is to enter into the fathomless heart of divine love. We feel then her all-comprehending sweetness and compassion. No one anywhere can ever give us so profound and lasting satisfaction as when we are with Her. She is so utterly good to everyone without exception that each soul feels fulfilled in her presence.
Love of truth, beauty and harmony will inevitably lead us to the secret Temple in the heart where She is forever installed, in all her glory, her hand always outstretched in the act of blessing. Our little life and existence is no better than the life of a firefly. If we can annul ourselves totally, realise our absolute nothingness then we are admitted into the resplendent vision of the One, the eternal Mother Divine. Verily, all is that Supreme Reality. We become dumb before that supernal Mystery.
O Mother Divine remain bright in my soul, become brighter in my consciousness so that I see only You and no one else.
May we become whatever You want us to be for You always work for our highest good.
May we remember You in every breath of our life for that brings the sweetest intimacy, the silent ecstasy, Om, Om Supreme Goodness.
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The Voice of the Divine
The Mother and Sri Aurobindo speak with the Voice of the Divine and carry the power of the All Mighty. They are ambassadors of the Supreme endowed with his total executive authority. They have been sent on earth with the mandate of preparing it for the advent of the divine race. They have come down armed with the plenary power of the Absolute. In order to raise this fallen race of ours they have accepted our wretched obscure human existence and willingly suffered its thousand ills and torments. There is nothing in our miserable life that is unknown to Them. They have prescribed a permanent remedy, an infallible cure for our obscure, ignorant, sorrowful existence. The Mother and Sri Aurobindo indivisible in their soul and consciousness say with one voice:
To surrender all we are, all we have, our past, present and future, everything to the Divine, to remain open exclusively to his influence, aspire for his presence, his light, power, knowledge, his peace and harmony. Act always openly in their presence and they will lead us to the most wonderful divine life out of this terrible chaos, cruelty and violence, this meaningless unending suffering. Let us have faith in them and our highest spiritual destiny. Cling to them whatever happens and our trust will be justified. They cannot be perpetually indulgent to our ignorant destructive demands and desires. The path of yoga can be compared to the passage of a tornado, all the bonds and citadels of ignorance are blown away and torrential rains of grace clean and transform the consciousness. Sometimes we will curse and revolt and bite the Hand that wants to deliver us from the dungeon in the beginning. But hold on to Them like a leach through thick and thin and in the end our faith will be rewarded. Instead of this sordid earth and the material universe, we will see the Divine, infinity, eternity, the face of God everywhere. His immeasurable, immortal existence will swallow up our little insignificant life and death and release you into an everlasting life. This is what They are doing for us and much more, much more than we can understand. Let us have faith, They are always with us, inside and outside and around. Be simple, follow their guidance, act with selfless egoless divine motivation. In our sincerity if we make a wrong decision, the Divine will rectify the consequences. Every moment is a new opportunity. Errors there will be plenty. If we are simple and sincere there is no danger, no ill effect. Their blessings are always with us. Their love is like a ring of fire protecting us from the forces of darkness inside and outside. As a dog cannot see the Divinity in a stone statue, so too, we cannot see the Divine and his world in the material universe. When we will be ready the veil will be withdrawn and we will emerge into the divine life.
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Our Life is an Altar
The Mother has always been to me the Incarnation, the direct embodiment of the ultimate absolute Consciousness and Being. At a time of life when I was desperately seeking a meaning in life, I met Her and the moment I saw Her truly speaking all my problems were solved forever. I knew that She was the ultimate solution. I came here to find the Divine. I was aware of a supreme omniscient Presence but I had no communication with it. I knew that only She could help me to find the Divine. She assured me of her help in my effort to realise the Divine. One day She told me not to depend on her Person but on her spiritual Reality. She never encouraged me to be near her Person in a familiar human way. She told me this She did because She wanted that I should be in direct contact with the Divine. She told me that She was always with me and I was always with Her. As a matter of fact, this has been a living experience with me. Whatever I do, She is sovereignly present in my consciousness. The soul in me had implicit faith in the Mother. Whatever She says is the absolute truth, whatever She does is an act of grace, meant to take us to the divine goal . By the fiery compassionate lightning of the terrible Mother Kali most of the basic ignorant instincts are reduced to ashes. The prison of heart and mind crumble under the assault of the divine force and the soul is released into a vast limitless consciousness of the nameless formless divine existence. When I came here I did not know how to pray, even what to pray for. I had no life. I had no future and I was a stranger to an abiding joy. The Mother has taken over my life, mind, body and soul and I can feel Her transforming force working in me I am so deeply satisfied with Her constant Presence that I have only one desire – to sing Her Glory
.Our life is an altar, a Temple for the adoration of the World-Mother. But for Her, I could not have believed that the Divine is so compassionate and loving.
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19 October 1983
The physical Presence of the Mother
I came to the Ashram in June 1946 finally to stay. From that day, I had a sense of total security in the physical Presence of the Mother. She gave a perfect stability to my material existence. I have passed through many long periods of hesitation and great inner difficulties, which is quite natural in any process of yoga. But this sense of utter protection and stability never left me, even in my darkest days. She was the visible symbol of absolute assurance. As far as I was concerned, I had the feeling that nothing could ever go wrong for She was there physically. Sometimes in my confidence, I would even become arrogant. Even if I did anything wrong, I would be protected. In reality, I had very little physical contact with the Mother. I had no need for it, for in my inner consciousness She was always there and She is always there. But when She left the body in November, 1973 it was as if I lost the plank under my feet. That sense of absolute security and stability which came from Her physical Presence disappeared. I felt like an orphan, without parents or a home. Though in my consciousness She was fully present always, though I met Her so often in dreams, though I felt how She helped, protected and guided our life in a very material way, nothing satisfied me. That most reassuring physical protection was absent. There was nowhere any symbol of physical protection and stability, as if we were at the mercy of the world. This physical separation created a searing despair in the being, especially in the body. The soul remained unconsoled even with the constant perception of the One.
Recently something magnificent has happened. I have found the same reassuring physical Presence of the Mother as concrete as before, perhaps even more, for it is eternal, for it is the Eternal Mother, She who forever is. There is no one else, nothing else. I do not have to seek Her, I do not have to imagine Her. There She is, always with Her most reassuring unveiled Presence. That lost sense of protection and stability has come back. Once again, nothing can go wrong for She is there, more concrete, real and tangible than this material universe. I am no longer an orphan. I have found the Mother. I feel no one, nothing can touch me. She is there. She has the absolute control over everything in the most physical way. She alone is the only durable physical Presence. I feel we are all saved. This time I shall not be arrogant anymore.
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We must remember the Mother
We can only be happy if all our life is turned towards the Mother. We must remember Her as much as possible and act always in Her presence. It is not possible for our little mind to know how with utmost love, care and protection She is leading us towards the Divine inspite of our ignorance, resistance and revolt. She is working everywhere from within the things and beings for the progressive manifestation of harmony and unity. The entire sense of the yoga is to become more and more aware of the Mother and Her action in our life. As long as we are turned to Her, practically nothing wrong can happen to us. Whatever She does is for our highest good. So let us offer our life and service in love and gratitude to the Mother.
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Niranjan Guha Roy

Painting - on the other shore

Painting Niranjan Guha Roy
Commentaries on the painting

 On the other shore
From shadow to Light
From death to Life
Who will hesitate, I ask?
Even if the road seems a little risky, so narrow and fragile.
But why worry!
The Mother is just below, protecting us in our march towards freedom.
Courage, my friends, do not hesitate.
Let us join these adventurous pilgrims who have chosen the eternal life.
We will not loose anything, I am sure.
But we will loose all that sorrowful,
Dreary life that is the lot of poor us, human beings.
Join the procession and march forward, singing an hymn of gratitude
To the Mother Divine who is waiting for us on the other shore.
Look, friends, how She is smiling.
What a welcome we will have!
Our heart already is full of joy only to feel even so little
The marvellous existence waiting for us on the other shore.

There are some great moments in life.

Niranjan Guha Roy - September 1983

There are some great moments in life.

One such moment is when we become aware how helpless we are, how utterly meaningless is our life, how helpless is man, how he is absolutely nothing, nothing. Hardly anybody knows his tomorrow, the next moment. There is no certitude about anything: wealth, position, relations, power, health. Nothing is certain. Anything can happen at any moment. The sense of stability is an illusion. Our ideals, our hopes and dreams seem as unsubstantial as a mirage in a desert. There is nothing to hold onto. All roads seem to lead to nowhere. Our little lives are like little sparks from a flame, dead no sooner it is born. We are crushed by an inexorable fate. Yet something in us desperately cries, "My dream is not a lie, there is life, there is hope." We are powerless, but the world goes on. From a whirling ball of fire this earth has become a peaceful globe covered with water and green land. Life has blossomed, birds, animals and man have come and who knows what is yet to come. Behind the wild fury of our mad restless life there is a vast plan, a mystery slowly unfolding itself in time. Man thinks he is the king of the earth but forgets that he too is a product of the slime just as the worm. He too is just a flower among many other flowers in the vast garden of nature. Yet he is privileged to contemplate the Mystery that surrounds his birth and the birth of the world and the stars and the universe. Will he ever penetrate the Mystery? What is this universe? Where is it going? What moves it and gives it a direction?
One day he stumbles on a hidden door not far from him but deep within his own being. He becomes dumb with amazement. His hopes and dreams are true in their essence. He realises that they are distorted and deformed in the prism of his little mind. He has been cutting up the vast eternal symphonic movement into little microscopic bits and pieces. He has been taking a minute part of the drama and imagining it to be the whole, leaving out the immeasurable rest. There is the key to all the problems of life deep deep within but as long as we are tied to the little lake of our village we cannot fathom the sea or sail the ocean. If we are daring, if we love adventure, if we would willingly break every bond and boundary, then the hidden spring, the eternal fountain of life may gush out from the unsounded depths of our being in the mystic heart. Unless we become aware of the whole, the infinity, the totality, we can never find a way out of our absurd hopelessness, utter chaos and confusion, our fruitless vain struggle for a respite, for a solution. When we touch the hidden spring, the inexorable fate sheds its dreadful mask and we are in the Presence of the Supreme musician, incarnation of beauty and harmony, the One who alone is infinitely, eternally, in each face and form in stillness and in movement, the endless, measureless symphony of self-revelation forever fulfilled.
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15 August - Sri Aurobindo

Om Sri Aurobindo saranam mama

Pranam, pranam, pranam

Our gratitude, our salutations


paintings - photos - Adoration

Adoration of the Mother Divine

Niranjan Guha Roy


Self-annihilation in the Divine

Self-annihilation in the Divine

We feel the need of an integral surrender to the Divine Mother in order to emerge into the truth of the divine consciousness. Our mind must be silent, not running in habitual circles of our plans and projects. Our vital must be peaceful, free of desires, free from all restlessness which seeks all the time, new and exciting happenings or is otherwise depressed. Our body must be full of a quiet energy under the awakened psychic influence and not driven like a slave by a mind vital, combined, selfish master. Our aspiration to see and feel the sole existence of the divine reality must be strong, sincere and unflagging. The Divine alone exists. The Divine alone acts. The Divine alone decides how the world should be at each moment in the minutest detail. The Divine alone knows our destiny, our place, our work and what we are supposed to do and how best we can do it. Not even the least blade of grass moves without his power and sanction. We live in the illusion of a separate, distinct individuality, personality. We have a microscopic beginning and we grow as He has seen us in his vision. We are at best a little lamp illumined by his power, consciousness and felicity. We exist only for his divine pleasure. Our life will be fulfilled when we shall live, feel and act only for His pleasure, when the least trace of ego, the false impression of a separate being will have disappeared, when we will have become a conscious organ of his infinite body, moved by his delight. Total self annihilation in the Divine Being is the aim and the very essence of surrender.
Niranjan Guha Roy -1986