souvenirs – Hymn to the Mother Divine

Niranjan Guha Roy – Sri Aurobindo Ashram – 1979
In our search for the Divine we set an ideal of all beauty, absolute felicity, all power and a total knowledge, all these usually combined in some known form of incarnation, or some divine Personality described in the spiritual Scriptures midst legends and traditions, Still, the Divine remains a mysterious personality, There are always some fears and doubts. We do not have really full confidence in his absolute goodness, love and wisdom. We are fearful of his all-mighty power. The Divine seems to be sometimes too great, too splendid, too high to be approached. The past Incarnations do not help much for they are too far away, too much clothed in myths and legends to be fully credible.
To me, the Divine was really something nebulous, a mixed image of doubtful reality, a Person who always remained distant and awesome until I saw the Mother. In Her, and through Her, I saw the face of the Eternal who is all-truth, all-goodness, all-beauty and felicity. I saw the majestic nobility of the Divine. I understood why when He incarnates himself among the human beings, He is always a King, a Prince, a Queen, a Princess by the very aristocracy inherent in the divine soul. I understood why the Divine is called the Healer by watching and experiencing the Mother. How She healed in an instant, by a mere glance of that captivating felicity the wounds and pangs and the accumulated suffering of ages in a soul seeking her healing touch. I know now why the Divine is called the light, the supreme light, the supreme understanding and wisdom.
I went to the Mother and laid before her my whole being full of perversity, violence, hatred, jealousy and impenetrable darkness. Not a single syllable of reproach, not even the slightest sign of distrust or dismay in her face. A radiant, all compassionate smiling sun took me in her intimate embrace and all became pure, tranquil and grateful. We have only read in Scriptures, in fairy-tales that the Divine is all merciful and forgiving. I had my doubts. How can He forgive me for my enormous obscure thoughts and actions in my consciousness, I who have crucified the Divine a thousand times in my blind violence during periods of utter inward rebellion? With the hell fire burning in my heart, I have approached the Mother. Nothing is hidden from Her, She saw the fury in me and in a casual way as if nothing had happened She said to me ” Play the violin, it will give you peace” Not the violin but her words of utter understanding, utter forgiveness, Her words of an unimaginable magnanimity gave me the felicitous taste of peace for which the souls aspire. I have understood now why the Divine is called the Bountiful, how He alone can bring to us all the wealth of nature and earth and the spiritual domains. The Mother has poured her nectar in my heart, transformed the poison that was in it and made it a running fountain from which her sweetness flows silently over the barren rocky, rich and fertile soils without preference, without choice, with its delight of existence and fulfillment. We have read in Scriptures that the Divine is seated in the mystic center of the heart in the solar plexus. There is hidden in that sanctuary the rose of God. Yes, it is true, her Presence and perfume, her sweetness and her light flow out from that center and inundate the whole being in order to transform this insensitive mind into a divine substance. It is said in the Scriptures that the sleepless power, the Transcendent Divine, the Eternal, the Supreme Shakti, the Supreme Power, Para-Shakti, the one original Power is housed in the thousand-petal lotus at the crown of the head. Our Rishis and Seers are absolutely right, the Mother has broken the golden lid, that separates our life from the divine life, the intellect from the sun of truth: not by any human effort or tapasya could this ever have been achieved. Now I know, She is the Eternal, the One and the Original Power, Adya-Shakti. She has revealed to me in Her and through Her the most sublime form of the Creator, that supreme light which She ever is. ” She is, She was, and She will be ” is a very ancient declaration but more true is her proclamation in Devi Parana ” I alone exist in this universe, who else is there apart from Me” The Mother has revealed the true face of the Eternal. She alone is and there is no one else. This ceaseless mystic procession of myriads of names, faces and forms is her triumphal march through eternal time. There is only one being, one will, one existence and one single rapture of movement. It is only through her grace, her infinite compassion that we have been permitted to see, feel and know the Divine as He is or as He has been experienced by the great Seers and Rishis throughout the ages. It is She who has made the Divine Presence real and concrete in our consciousness. It is She who has brought us out once for all from the chaos, disorder, agony and frustration, unrelenting struggle and conflict within and without by revealing to us the true face of the Eternal. Having seen Her, we have seen and above all felt the Eternal, the Friend, the Guide, the Mother and we have entered into the constant vision and awareness of the Divine who forever is everything, everywhere.
Blessed be the sacred name of the Mother Divine, so humble, so simple, so magnificently Divine and who is always now present and real to our consciousness. Without Her we have no reality, no existence. Her name is truly written luminously on each petal of rose. O Mother Divine Thy love and benediction for one and all forever and ever.
Niranjan Guha Roy playing the violin
 

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