The Mother Divine
In our search for the Divine, we set an ideal of all beauty, absolute felicity, all power and a total knowledge, all these usually combined in some known form of incarnation or some divine personality described in the spiritual scriptures amidst legends and traditions. Still, the Divine remains a mysterious personality. There are always some fears and doubts. We do not have really full confidence in His absolute goodness, love and wisdom. We are fearful of His all-mighty Power. The Divine seems to be sometimes too great, too splendid, too high, to be approached. The past incarnations do not help much for they are too far away, too much clothed in myths and legends to be fully credible.
To me, the Divine was really something nebulous, a mixed image of doubtful reality, a person who always remained distant, austere, and awesome until I saw the Mother. In Her, and through Her, I saw the face of the Eternal who is all-truth, all-goodness, all-beauty and felicity. I saw the majestic nobility of the Divine. I understood why when He incarnates Himself among the human beings, He is like a king or a queen, by the very aristocracy inherent in the divine soul. I understood why the Divine is called the Healer by watching and experiencing the Mother. How She healed in an instant, by a mere glance of that captivating felicity, the wounds and pangs and the accumulated suffering of ages in a soul seeking Her healing touch. I know now why the Divine is called the Light, the supreme light, the supreme understanding and wisdom. I went to the Mother and laid before Her my whole being full o impenetrable darkness. Not a single syllable of reproach, not even the slightest sign of distrust or dismay in Her face. A radiant all-compassionate smiling sun took me in Her intimate embrace and all became pure, tranquil and grateful. We have only read in Scriptures, in fairy tales, that the Divine is all merciful and forgiving. I had my doubts. How can He forgive me for my enormous diabolical thoughts and actions in my consciousness, I who have crucified the Divine a thousand times in my blind violence during periods of utter rebellion. With the hell-fire burning in my heart, I approach the Mother. Nothing is hidden from Her, She saw the demon and fury in me. bu Her words of utter understanding, utter forgiveness, Her words of an unimaginable magnanimity gave me the felicitous taste of peace for which the souls aspire. I have understood now why the Divine is called Bountiful, how He alone can bring to us all the wealth of nature and earth and the spiritual domains. The Mother has poured Her nectar in my heart, transformed the poison that was in it and made it a running fountain from which Her sweetness flows silently over the barren, rocky, rich and fertile soils without preference, without choice, with its own delight of existence and fulfillment. We have read in Scriptures that the Divine is seated in the mystic centre of the heart in the solar plexus. There is hidden in that sanctuary the Rose of God. Yes, it is true. Her presence and perfume, Her sweetness and Her light flow out from that centre and inundate the whole being in order to transform this insensitive mud into a divine substance. It is said in the Scriptures that the sleepless Power, the Transcendent Divine, the Eternal, the Supreme Shakti, the Supreme Power, Para-Shakti, the One original Power is housed in the thousand petalled lotus at the crown of the head. Our Rishis and Seers are absolutely right, the Mother has broken the golden lid that separates our life from the Divine life, the intellect from the
sun of Truth; not by any human effort or tapasya could this ever have been achieved. Now I know, She is the Eternal, the One and the original Power Adya-Shakti. She has revealed to me in Her and through Her the most sublime form of the Creator. That Supreme Light which She ever is. “She is, She was, and She will be” is a very ancient declaration, but more true is Her proclamation in Devi Purana, “I alone exist in this universe, who else is there apart from me?” The Mother has revealed to me the true face of the Eternal. She alone is and there is no one else.
This ceaseless mystic procession of myriads of names, faces, and forms is Her triumphal march through eternal time. There is only one Being, one Will, one Existence and one single rapture of movement. It is only through Her Grace, Her infinite compassion that we have been permitted to see, feel and know the Divine as He is or as He has been experienced by the great Seers and Rishis throughout the ages. It is She Who has made the Divine Presence real and concrete in our consciousness. It is She Who has brought us out once and for all from the chaos, disorder, agony and frustration, unrelenting struggle and conflict within and without by revealing to us the true face of the Eternal. Having seen Her, we have seen and above all felt the Eternal, the Friend, the Teacher, the Guide, the Mother and we have entered into the constant vision and awareness of the Divine who forever is everything and everywhere.
Blessed be the sacred name of the Mother Divine so humble, so simple, so magnificently divine.
Niranjan Guha Roy