I felt as if a train was in my body, a huge powerful flow of divine felicity, too strong for my body. Then I sat at the organ. As I was playing I heard a sound as if a thousand organs were playing, filling up the whole world or universe. I had never heard anything like that in my life, so powerful, penetratingly ravishing, intolerable ecstasy. I had to stop playing. Then I realised fully, entirely, more deeply than ever that the Mother and Sri Aurobindo are the Supreme, who came down on the earth behind a thick veil, almost impenetrable of humanity. Now they are constantly present – there is nothing to worry about – the world is utterly divine. Whatever shadows we see will disappear. Each one is the Divine Himself, not less, absolute, no one else but the Divine, nothing to be done, just the Divine manifesting Himself in his utter glory. There is still in my consciousness the awareness of our human life and society. It is an old habit and utter ignorance. Still the old world comes back from time to time, but it has no reality. There is only the Supreme Mother, love, delight. My soul, my whole body enters into a state of gratitude, utter self-giving. Now when I look around I do not see human beings. Behind the thin veil stands the splendour of the supreme glory. When I play music, it becomes a hundred times more intense. The body can hardly sleep, but now it will be stabilized, peace is coming. It is not an ordinary peace – but the peace of the himalayan mountains, in order not to be blown out of existence. There is far more in that experience, far more, too long, too deep, too difficult to be expressed in words.
Om namo Bhagavate. Om Sri Aurobindo, Om Douce Mère. All mantras will not be able to express their love and compassion for all, for each one. Thy Will Be Done.
Niranjan Guha Roy