Some experience with the transforming force
The body was flooded with felicity and delight. I entered into a world of absolute presence of the Divine, His love and delight, extremely powerful.
The Force was working in the whole body as if it was burning. It subsided. The vision was overwhelming, it seemed as if the whole body had become a power generating dynamo, an extremely powerful vibration. The vibration seemed absolutely immobile. The presence of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo filled the whole space. I could almost see their physical presence, huge, most reassuring, as if all their support was with me. The energy flowed, I couldn’t contain it. The body was shattered. The whole body was like a powerful dynamo. I thought I would blow up, but gradually things subsided, energy was always there, light, light, everywhere. The power sometimes receded, then came back, almost with an explosive violence. I felt as if all the cells were burnt out, but relieved. I felt I had crossed the bar and been admitted in the supreme spiritual Reality, everything, everyone, anything in my mind became ravishingly divine. The whole world, all the beings were only the Divine in His splendour. In that light, intolerable ecstasy going through the body like a gigantic generator, the inner being has been crushed out of existence as if it has passed through a massive sugarcane crushing machine, nothing is left of the personality, everything has been scattered into the infinity of God, into the vast boundless, vibrating ocean of love, the Mother. There is nothing but the Mother and Sri Aurobindo, They are one supreme Being, everywhere in everything, staggeringly powerful, devastating presence.
Our human body, even our inner being, all taken together is extremely weak, and at the mere touch of the divine force, or with a drop of that golden liquid, all the being can end up in an explosion – it will take centuries to prepare bodies which can safely hold the sacred fire. The evolution will proceed by slow steps, very slow steps, otherwise it will collapse. From then onwards there was a fundamental change in my vision. There is no longer any human living being, each one is utterly eternally divine.
Niranjan Guha Roy 1999