The Power worked in the body as if hundreds of needles were being pushed into the body, extremely painful. When this Force was working between 5 and 6 a.m., it wiped out all darkness forever. There was nothing but an ocean of light and an intense powerful gratitude rose from my whole being to the Mother and Sri Aurobindo. It was too much for my little body – it gave the impression of being literally burnt inside, there was no pain but an unbearable pressure of power, I didn’t have a second of peace. I talked for two days and two nights almost non-stop, because I found that when I talked the pressure was released. I talked about the tremendous divine presence, how everything was utterly divine, each one, each being, each thing was that magnificent spiritual Reality, a living symbol of God, and I saw the same all the time. Mother, please Mother give me a little more time, so that I can love You, adore You in all things and beings, because there was nothing else, no one else but the supreme peaceful Mother. This state has become the very foundation of my consciousness. The love for the Mother has become the entire life. When the power was coming down I cupped my eyes with my hands, as if there was a beautiful night sky with twinkling stars. Sometimes it seemed that they were falling into me. Everything is like a vast desert. The earth that I had known was as if gone forever. It is not an arid desert, but a huge boundless land where the new crop, the new creation will gradually manifest. So there is no planning, no project, no writing, no birth or death. Gradually what has to manifest will manifest, effortlessly, spontaneously.