correspondance with the Mother
Hermitage Auroville June 2, 1972
Douce Mère,
Since a few days, there is an incessant warning so that we may be ready inwardly and on the material plane for the great change. We have swept all preconceived projects from our consciousness so that the vision of the Mother Divine may be accomplished. We want to be absolute slaves of the Lord, just as He has asked us to be. The Mother Divine is almost in entire possession of our active consciousness. The vision is clear - She is the only Reality, the single Will of life, the sole manifestation. You are quite near. We know that at each step You direct us.
Since this change is inevitable and seems to be imminent would it not be desirable that this is effected without drama, noise or pain, in silence and in love. In fact, we do not know anything about what is waiting for us. But all we know is that the Divine Mother, in Her infinite Grace would give us a marvelous opportunity to serve Her, love Her in all who love Her, in all beings, in all existence, for She is the sole existence. A ravishing flow of fugitive names and forms of a single Person, Love personified. What happiness to know, to see that at each instant, everything is a harmony ineffably perfect, mysterious; that at each instant Thou art supremely Victorious. You will call us when it would seem to You that the hour has come. We are under Your orders and wait for Your command. Victory, Victory to Thee, O Douce Mere. May all the beings recognise Thee, love and adore Thee and find the true durable happiness that is Thyself.
Amita-Niranjan
Answer given by the Mother
Yes, the moment has come. But it is a long moment and we will need much patience.
It is precisely in silence and in love that this change will best take place and most rapidly. I am with you.
The Mother
The Divine Will or the Law of Love
The highest wisdom from all points of view is to give oneself to the divine will. Because after all, it is the divine will which is being accomplished at every moment through apparent collaboration, non-collaboration, resistance and revolt. What is this divine will? It is the absolute law of love based on the vision of the indivisible supreme divine Reality, the Being, the Lord, the Mother, the Eternal, where one sees nothing but the Divine in everything and the substance of everything, where there is no moment except of the Divine, where there is no other aim than the enjoyment of the felicity and love. How can we be certain of this law of love, the divine will? Unless we have become identified with the Divine entirely, exclusively, it is difficult to perceive and realize this law in action. So the ultimate wisdom is to call upon the divine will, His Law of Love, His sacrifice of Oneness to take possession of us entirely, to do its work without consent and collaboration or in spite of them and even against their refusal and resistance. If our call is sincere the law of love is accomplished however poor might be the instrumental being. By our passivity to the law we can allow it to be fulfilled. As we become more and more open to the divine Reality our participation in this law of love becomes more and more active, dynamic and effective. In the first stages even if we do not feel the love so much there can be a peace of infinity which is invariable, impartial, equal and works for the highest good for all the beings, and as our contact with the divine reality increases and as we become more and more possessed by the divine reality and identified with it, the law of love becomes operative and effective and all embracing. We need not bother about the worthiness of any being or beings to receive and respond to this law of love - according to the development of the beings and their response to this highest Love there will be automatically, spontaneously, inevitably formation of a collectivity or groups like the galaxies around each divine inspiration and the blossoming would be spontaneous, everything directed by, presided over by the Lord of sacrifice of love, by the Divine Mother Herself through Her active Presence in all things and beings and beyond.
N.Guha Roy
Experience with the Force 3
26 6 99
All around me, everything was like a vast desert. The earth that I had known was gone forever and still that state is there. It is not an arid desert, but a huge boundless land where the new crop, the new creation will gradually manifest. So there is no planning, no project, no writing, no birth or death. Gradually what has to manifest will manifest, effortlessly, spontaneously.
Then I started feeling as if a train was in my body, a huge powerful flow of divine felicity, too strong for my body. Then I sat at the organ. As I was playing I heard a sound as if a thousand organs were playing, filling up the whole world or universe. I had never heard anything like that in my life, so powerful, penetratingly ravishing, intolerable ecstasy. At the same time a thousand orchestras seemed to be playing. This music was filling the whole earth and sky, the whole creation. I myself never heard such powerful harmonious, intolerable Felicity. When I played , I was not playing, it was a tremendous power of harmony flowing through me, playing through me. All I can say, I do not know how I have survived. It was only by the grace of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo constantly present protecting me, so that I would not explode.
Now the body has slowly regained a stability, but even now at times that power suddenly invades the whole being. It is not a suffering, but a flow of unbearable currents of the supreme divine love and gratitude. Now I feel the body won’t break down, it is becoming more peaceful by the downpour of a pacifying force. But that power behind, of supreme harmony, is always there.
The Mother and Sri Aurobindo are the Supreme, who came down on the earth behind a thick veil, almost impenetrable of humanity. Now they are constantly present – there is nothing to worry about – the world is utterly Divine. Whatever shadows we see will disappear. Each one is the Divine Himself, not less. Absolute, no one else but the Divine, nothing to be done, just the Divine manifesting Himself in His utter Glory. There is still in my consciousness the awareness of our human life and society. It is an old habit and utter ignorance. Still the old world comes back from time to time, but it has no reality. There is only the Supreme Mother, Love, Delight. My soul, my whole body enters into a state of gratitude, utter self-giving. Now when I look around I do not see human being. Behind the thin veil stands the Splendor of the Supreme Glory. When I play music, it becomes a hundred times more intense. The body can hardly sleep, but now it will be stabilized, Peace is coming. It is not an ordinary Peace – but the Peace of the Himalayan Mountains, in order not to be blown out of existence. There is far more in that experience, far more, too long, too deep, too difficult to be expressed in words.
Om namo Bhagavate. Om Sri Aurobindo, Om Douce Mère.
Experiences with the Force 2
14 6 99
At night between 5 and 6 , a Power worked in the body as if hundreds of needles were being pushed into the body, extremely painful. I knew this Force when I was working in the library 1955 to 1962. When it came, my body would be in utter agony and often I felt like rolling on the ground. I was so afraid of it that I stopped concentrating on the Mother Divine. Not only that, when this Force came, it released elements hidden in the dark lower region of the being.
When this Force was working between 5 and 6 a.m., it wiped out all darkness forever. There was nothing but an ocean of Light and an intense powerful gratitude rose from my whole being to the Mother and Sri Aurobindo. But it was too much for my little body – it gave the impression of being literally burnt inside, there was no pain but an unbearable pressure of Power . I saw and realised the tremendous Divine Presence, how everything was utterly Divine, each one, each being, each thing was That magnificent spiritual Reality, a living symbol of God, and I saw the same all the time.
Mother, please Mother give me a little more time, so that I can love You, adore You in all things and beings, because there is nothing else, no one else but the Supreme peaceful Mother. This state has become the very foundation of my consciousness. The love for the Mother has become the entire life. When the Power was coming down I cupped my eyes with my hands as the room was lighted above the head, as if there was a beautiful night sky with twinkling stars. Sometimes it seemed that they were falling into me.
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N .Guha Roy1999
Experiences with the Force
The body was flooded with felicity and delight. I entered into a world of absolute Presence of the Divine, His Love and Delight, extremely powerful.
The Force was working in the whole body as if it was burning. It subsided. The vision was overwhelming, it seemed as if the whole body had become a power generating dynamo, an extremely powerful vibration. The vibration seemed absolutely immobile. The Presence of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo filled the whole space. I could almost see Their physical Presence, huge most reassuring, as if all Their support was with me. It was a living body of bottomless, vast, most powerful Everything was silent, there was no sound anywhere.
The energy flowed, I couldn’t contain it. The whole body was like a powerful dynamo. I thought I would blow up, but gradually things subsided, energy was always there, Light, Light, everywhere. The Power sometimes receded, then came back, almost with an explosive violence. I felt as if all the cells were burnt out, but relieved. As if I have crossed the bar and been admitted in the supreme spiritual Reality, everything, everyone, anything in my mind became ravishingly Divine. The whole world, all the beings were only the Divine in His splendor. In that Light, intolerable ecstasy going through the body like a gigantic generator, the inner being has been crushed out of existence as if it has passed through a massive crushing machine, nothing is left of the personality, everything has been scattered into the infinity of God, into the vast boundless, vibrating ocean of Love, the Mother. There is nothing but the Mother and Sri Aurobindo, They are One Supreme Being, everywhere in everything, staggeringly powerful, devastating Presence.
1999 Niranjan Guha Roy
Some Words 2
A prayer given by the Mother:
"I salute Thee, O Mother with intense gratitude.
May Thy unique Presence radiate in my life."
I am told that God distributes a different role to each one to come on earth.
Only Divine Love can transform the earth life.
Unity and Harmony.
.Radha, Kali, Krishna, all united in the consciousness.
The Asuric forces will lose their grip on the world.
The painful Force came back and worked from the chest downwards for half an hour or less.
It was more bearable. It opened a closed box inside me - took the lid apart.
The painful Force worked in the body for half an hour or so. It made me very tired.
The Essays on the Gita by Sri Aurobindo are the foundation
of the Integral Yoga of Sri Aurobindo.
The whole night there was a silent and deadly battle between the Divine Force
and powerful adversary in my body, in the blood stream. The Divine Force all the time neutralized poison injected in the blood.
The painful Force worked in the body for over an hour. I went to sleep.
Om Douce Mère. Another step forward.
Some words
The body must not be pushed too hard. It is not by making the body stronger that it can be transformed. It is only by an exclusive concentration of the spiritual Power that any transformation is possible.
I prayed that my work be imposed on me by the Divine.
Patience, more patience. To go very slowly.
A heart without love is a dried-up land.
Satya - sangha - The Truth Society exists in the subtle domain.
The ONE is the ultimate Reality.
I said to the Mother, “I am Your slave. You are always with me. I have no life without You, I am always ready to serve You.”
My state of consciousness - absolute certitude of the unique Divine existence.
The Mother said surrender will be the general culture of the world.
I said to Sri Aurobindo“When I repeat the name of Sri Aurobindo for any individual problem, it is solved in no time.
To go very slow. High speed will ruin the work.
Then I understand that each one, each being has his own ray of sun that is his personal relation with the Divine and the cord for climbing towards God.
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N.Guha Roy
Prayers to the Mother
To the Mother
Om Douce Mère, May my surrender be so complete that I am moved only by Thee.
Om Sri Aurobindo, may I participate in the Work, as You like me to do - spontaneously.
May I be so replete with You that I may absorb
All ignorant shocks
Give me strength and peace
To withstand the violence of the unillumined consciousness
Lead me in the right direction.
May we not get caught in any wrong movement.
May my surrender become perfect.
May I see the unbound, unconditioned Supreme Godhead,
Eternal and infinite in all manifestation
And beyond all in a timeless, spaceless Infinity.
MayThy limitless Love unite all the people
May Thy peace and unity triumph everywhere
May I become a perfect instrument in Thy hands
May I become fully aware of the divine will
May I become more and more conscious of the Divine.
Inspire us to do the right thing in a spontaneous way .
May my life be consecrated to the most difficult task.
May I be possessed by the self realising divine power
When the eye is open then, through all the innumerable creeks
in things and beings one sees only the Divine everywhere.
It is a constant ceaseless manifestation of the Divine.
All is done by the Divine, in the Divine.
As we become conscious of the Divine,
we move more and more with the divine rhythm
In a satisfied harmony
May I be always conscious of the Divine, the Ocean
and may I not loose myself in the play of the waves
May I see the Ocean even in the spray
Thrown out by the dancing waves.
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Niranjan Guha Roy
A ravishing glimpse of the future
Some are satisfied with the petty round of uneventful life,
Content to continue as their elders did, closed to the evolutionary urge,
And refuse to move forward, refuse to budge from mortal immobility,
O souls burning with an inner fire for change, for perfection,
God and Nature are your friends, but do not shout victory too soon.
Many frontiers have to be broken, all barriers separating man
From the Supreme Divine have to be erased until the soul
Emerges in the everlasting daylight of peace, harmony, Bbiss,
And indivisible unity and oneness embracing all creation.
The vilest of man lodges in his secret heart the highest Divinity.
As the inner Divinity stirs in his sleep, as he gradually wakes up,
An unprecedented upheaval shakes the very foundation of life.
Man, the dreamer, the visionary, the seeker of Truth is born.
The cramped boundaries of human knowledge dissolves suddenly
Into an unimaginable boundless Infinity of peace and light,
An oceanic Love invades and floods his life, mind, body and soul.
Shafts of supernal Light pour down through the broken ceiling
Of his mind and reveal the secret code of the eternal plan.
This bloody world of ceaseless wars disappears like an unreal mirage.
Each being, form or face becomes a poignant symbol, a miracle,
A ravishing glimpse of an unfathomable mysterious Presence.
Rejoice, there is nothing to fear. The sleeping Godhead in man
Is rising and will possess him entirely, fill him with divinity
Not man, but his ignorance, suffering and ego shall die.
Supremely conscious Mother Nature is creating a divine race.
Just as man emerged through a few million years from the ape,
So too now, the divine man will emerge out of this mental race.
God is Peace, Love, Joy, Beauty, Harmony, inexhaustible Infinity.
A new earth will manifest where brother does not kill brother,
No one goes hungry, no child weeps, no woman is dishonored.
Where all the barriers of caste, creed, color, religion and wealth
Disappear in a natural fraternity based on the Eternal One.
Even the snakes, wolves, sharks and marauders will become friends.
The terrible curse of the original sin will be lifted forever,
There will be singing and dancing and laughter in every hamlet.
Man will cease to be a diabolical beast, a cunning cannibal.
There no one would be a stranger, each one a true brother or sister.
The soul will recognise the Supreme Mother in every woman,
The Lord in all men and creatures.
God is closed as in a bud in every atom of this universe.
Once all the inner doors are fully open to the Light,
We shall feel God's body in whatever we touch and feel,
We shall hear the voice of Silence in every sound here,
Be thrilled with His silvery laughter in rippling water
And swoon in ecstasy in the grip of His sweet Power.
This is only the amazing opening scene of an inconceivable epic-drama.
God cannot be enclosed in a church, mosque or temple,
Nor His ways can ever be petrified in a text however sublime.
For the born-blind the sun does not exist nor the earth.
Far above and beyond the mind is the Supreme Eternal One.
The divine man is a friend of all creation, a living Power
Of Peace and Harmony, a kind healer of heart, mind and body.
The flame in his soul will ignite fire in many sleeping souls.
The Mother Divine stands smiling behind the curtain of Nature.
No one can be excluded; we are all Her children, portions of the One.
Like rain, Her blessings are falling on thirsty souls.
Niranjan Guha Roy
What are the steps of our ascension and preparation?
The evolution proceeded perfectly before the coming of man - man too is just a product of evolution, he is not the creator or the power who creates this world. At the moment he is moved and led forward through his ignorance, weakness and obscurity and suffering by the Supreme Power. He can aspire to be conscious of Her action, of Her aim in life. He can aspire to be a conscious, humble, simple servant and instrument, a child, Her conscious portion in the world drama possessed and moved by Her alone. But to arrive at this difficult and sacred consummation, what must he do? What are the steps of his ascension and preparation?
1) To discover the Soul or the Divine personality in us by concentration on the heart center. The result would be the liberation into the consciousness of immortality and divine existence. There is no question or imagination or guesswork or even wishful thinking. It is an undeniable, unmistakable state of consciousness self-evident requiring no proof.
2) The first movement as it deepens and widens will lead to the opening of all the centers in the being, especially one above the head known as the thousand petaled lotus. This opening will have concrete results constantly verifiable whenever one concentrates, meditates or wills; a consciousness, a power or force or light or joy or peace will come down through the head into the body to the heart center. This will be a normal experience; eventually this descent will be a continuous flow practically constant during waking, during sleeping, during work or leisure. The intensity will vary. The Divine Mother will pour Herself more and more in the instrument more and more purified, more and more transformed. There will be a constant widening and deepening of the consciousness accompanied by hundreds of spiritual experiences and constant revelations. The inner subtle walls separating us from the Cosmic Consciousness, from the Divine Consciousness will break down or explode under the pressure of the descending forces or the powers rising from within. This is a very dangerous and dramatic and heroic period of sadhana. Every human being is the quintessence of all the manifestation, of all that is beyond the manifestation. The high and the low join in him. There will be constant unrelenting battle in his being and consciousness between the lords of darkness and the beings of light, truth and greatness. There is no escape from this inner battle. At every moment the choice has to be made. Our only safeguard is to aspire and call down more and more the Divine Mother - consciousness, force - into our being. It is Her gradual and more and more complete descent that will eventually transform this human nature into the divine being. Nothing else could do it.
The key is an absolute surrender to the Divine at each instant with the knowledge that whatever happens in our life or in the life of the universe has been permitted and initiated by the Supreme Consciousness. There should be a joyful, obedient acceptance of every being, thing and movement in the universe. There must be at the same time a growing will to do at every instant what the Divine wants us to do. There must be an anxiety, a keen eagerness, an unfaltering faithfulness and loyalty and fervor to execute the Divine Will. This knowledge of the Divine Will can grow with our growing surrender and progressive annihilation of the ego. We must see the Spirit and the Divine in everyone and everything. The Absolute has taken an ephemeral relative form withholding in it all His absoluteness. It is the play, the Lila of the Divine Being, being all powerful, being all vision, being all wisdom, He is the lame, the blind, the wicked, the distorted for the sake of play and the sheer delight of existence. At any moment He can change His role, transform the world and reveal some splendid ray of His built-in divinity. The Absolute in all, the Absolute beyond everything, beyond all. We must cease to exist in infinity of eternal Existence and Consciousness. The iceberg must lose its identity in the Ocean and know itself only as a partial limited formation, a dream instant of the Ocean. If there is not that total liberation of the soul in the Divine Consciousness, there is the danger of a contrary result leading to utter self-oblivion, deception and ultimate spiritual ruin by the demonic magnification of the human ego. The results are inordinately cruel, powerful, megalomaniac beings who bring agony, violence, terror and death. This too is permitted by the Supreme Divine Will for a divine purpose, but this surely cannot be our aim for the world has seen enough of those monsters who are not extinct yet. This cannot happen to anyone who has truly discovered his soul or to anyone who sincerely aspires for a spiritual and divine existence.
N.Guha Roy